Open relationship?

I’ve been thinking what does a relationship really mean. Why do people choose to start a relationship, while some pick up an open relationship?

There are times that I really want to give it try and just let see what is going to happen next. It really sounds fantastic of having a relationship without any responsibilities and commitment. It sounds just perfect, whereby this relationship just stay so ideal and wonderful in between couple and friend relationship. It just brings simple little pleasures following one another softly like pearls slipping off a string. Simply just because there is no existence of pressure or tension involved as there won’t be any commitment nor promise to be held in such relationship. Hmm… to a certain extend, you can be considered as unofficially attached, but you still can go for other if you find someone else that seems to be more interesting and attractive.

However, when you are in a silent night, sitting at the corner of your room alone with a cup of hot coffee on your hand, who do you really want to be by your side? You might just feel so tired of all these vague and confusing feelings. What is the relationship all about to you now? Are you guys now couple or just friends? Might be emotionally attached, yet it’s still not officially in a relationship. Such affection is just temporary madness over each other, it erupts like an earthquake, then slowly the feeling gets subside. Next is just to continue each other’s own life as if you never knew each other before. No commitment, no responsibilities, no guilt even if you go for another one in just a split second. Who cares? Who really give a damn. No one does. In fact, who has the right to have control over each other while you guys are not even in a relationship? But is that really what you want? I don’t think so.

Relationships of all kinds just are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The moment you try secure it within your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact and undamaged. But hold on too tightly, too possessively and the relationship slips away and is lost. At times, thing is much easy to be said but when comes to action, it seems much harder than u ever thought. That's relationship is dangerous as things may just get out of control with even realizing when it goes offtrack. You will just go cross the baseline subconsciously and never even realize that it is just not right, just like being blinded. Too much to be considered in starting a relationship. But you told me that love is blind, and that is why nothing should turn out to be an issue, but the feeling itself. Confusion here and there then finally a song was played on the radio. "when i'm kissing you, it all starts making sense, and all the questions i've been asking in my head, like are the one, should i really trust, crystal clear it becomes when i'm kissing you"